I feel like I’m 16 again. All the smells of this house, the location of the lights, the way I have to tilt my head when I come down the stairs. The smell of my host mum’s cooking, the kerosine heater. The dog outside. Random variety TV on. The warmth of the kotatsu. Exhausted sleeping sideways on the floor, half in the kotatsu. Instant coffee with instant milk. The folded origami orange peel containers. The smell of the tatami mats in my room, the flicker of the fluorescent light. The quality of the light. It all brings me be back to a youthful age. I can see myself in here and I am revelling in the youthfulness.
「お茶飲む? マシューねニューヨーク住んだらいいのね、早く。」
Even the pangs of nicotine addiction that I had at the time makes me want to smoke a cigarette!?
I didn’t realize that it would be quite like this, but I feel that this is the most of a home I have been in since leaving my parents place last March / April. 落ち着きます。すぐに。And I had a really lovely conversation on the phone with my host brother, the same age, who I haven’t seen for 10 years. He sounds well, and grown up.




